Trots - Proud

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De afgelopen tijd zijn veel oude herinneringen weer boven komen drijven. Ook ben ik energetisch aangevallen door lagere entiteiten. Ik vermoed ook dat het allemaal te maken heeft met de volle Maan. Iedere volle Maan roept ons op om oude bagage los te laten zodat we ruimte kunnen creëren voor het nieuwe. En natuurlijk wil ik dat met alle liefde doen. Ik heb lang genoeg met al die zooi lopen zeulen. Ik wordt hierin ook gesteund door mijn engelbewaarder en beste vriend Ramirez. Ramirez en ik zijn al heel veel levens samen.

Ik zat wat oude stukken te lezen op dit blog en Ramirez zei tegen me, kijk eens hoe ver jij bent gekomen. Ondanks alle obstakels, tegenwerking, je eigen overtuigingen en koppigheid ben je ongelofelijk ver gekomen. Ik moest terugdenken aan mijn meest diepe dalen, de tijdens dat ik dakloos was en echt moest vechten om in leven te kunnen blijven. 1980, 1989 en 2011. Ik ben nooit echt heel lang dakloos geweest, maar dat wil niet zeggen dat het niet hard en zwaar was. 1989 was denk ik wel het absolute dieptepunt. Ik ben toen op sterven na dood gevonden.

Men zegt wel eens dat we niet achterom moeten kijken, het verleden moeten laten rusten en onze blik op de toekomst moeten richten. Ik ben het nooit eens geweest met die filosofie. Nee, we moeten niet in het verleden blijven hangen, maar je kunt veel leren van het verleden, iets wat de mensheid helaas niet echt doet. Waarom zijn er nog oorlogen, we weten al heel lang dat die niets oplossen. Toch worden er nog steeds oorlogen gevoerd en bereidt de EU en de NAVO op het moment zelfs een oorlog voor tegen Rusland.

Terugkijkend op mijn eigen leven heb ik ook de nodige oorlogen gevoerd met mijn familie, maar vooral met mezelf. Deze innerlijke oorlogen hebben de nodige verwondingen en littekens veroorzaakt, maar de meeste zijn door hard aan mezelf te werken inmiddels gelukkig geheeld. En ik mag dan niet rijk zijn of maatschappelijke status hebben, "iets wat nooit mijn interesse heeft gehad", maar als ik zie waar ik allemaal door heen ben gegaan, wat ik allemaal heb overwonnen, dan ben ik trots op mezelf. Ik heb het leven wat ik wilde en heb dat zelf gecreëerd.

Peter68 © ® 11-06-2025
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Proud

A lot of old memories have come flooding back lately. I have also been attacked energetically by lower entities. I also suspect that it all has to do with the full moon. Every full moon calls us to let go of old baggage so that we can create space for the new. And of course I want to do that with all my love. I have been lugging around all that stuff for long enough. I am also supported in this by my guardian angel and best friend Ramirez. Ramirez and I have been together for many lifetimes.

I was reading some old pieces on this blog and Ramirez said to me, look how far you have come. Despite all the obstacles, opposition, your own beliefs and stubbornness, you have come incredibly far. I had to think back to my deepest lows, the times when I was homeless and really had to fight to stay alive. 1980, 1989 and 2011. I've never really been homeless for a long time, but that doesn't mean it wasn't hard and tough. I think 1989 was the absolute low point. I was then found near death.

It is sometimes said that we should not look back, let the past rest and focus on the future. I've never agreed with that philosophy. No, we shouldn't dwell on the past, but you can learn a lot from the past, something that humanity unfortunately doesn't really do. Why are there still wars, we have known for a long time that they do not solve anything. Yet wars are still being fought and the EU and NATO are currently even preparing for a war against Russia.

Looking back on my own life, I have also fought my fair share of wars with my family, but especially with myself. These inner wars have caused the necessary injuries and scars, but most of them have fortunately healed by working hard on myself. And I may not be rich or have social status, "something that has never interested me", but when I see what I have been through, what I have overcome, then I am proud of myself. I have the life I wanted and I created it myself.

Peter68 © ® 11-06-2025
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Twijfels - Doubts

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Soms twijfel ik over mijn leven. Wat doe ik hier in hemelsnaam? Waarom ben ik naar hier gekomen? Ik heb geen ambities of doelen, iedere dag is zo'n beetje hetzelfde voor mij en ik ben altijd alleen. Ik ben geen mensen mens en de weinige vrienden die ik heb zie ik sporadisch. Ik denk graag na over het leven, waarom wij hier op deze planeet zijn, maar ik loop vaak vast op zoals dingen nu zijn. Alle belachelijke systemen waarin wij moeten functioneren en alle wetjes en regels. 

Dan komt bij mij de drang naar boven van absolute vrijheid, iets waar ik al sinds mijn kind zijn van droom. Vrijheid, het is een prachtig woord, maar het wordt al decennia lang misbruikt door politici en religie. Vrijheid is voor iedereen anders uit te leggen. Hoe ga ik vrijheid voor mij uitleggen? Ik ben een vrije denker en geest. Voor mij is niets onmogelijk. Je hoort wel eens mensen zeggen, "dat is onmogelijk". Dan denk ik waarom is dat onmogelijk? Is dat omdat het in gaat tegen jouw denkvermogen, omdat jouw dat zo is geleerd of misschien omdat jij niet wil dat het mogelijk is? 

Alles is mogelijk in dit Universum, zelfs ik ben mogelijk dus waarom zouden dingen niet mogelijk kunnen zijn? We leren iedere dag weer iets. Twee decennia geleden dachten wetenschappers dat het niet mogelijk was dat de zon aardbevingen op aarde kon veroorzaken. Tegenwoordig weten wij beter. De zon in verantwoordelijk voor alles hier op aarde. Van aardbevingen, tornado's, droogte, overstromingen tot aan klimaatverandering. Nog niet iedereen is aan boord over theorie, maar de meeste wetenschappers die niet de mainstream volgen en hun huiswerk goed hebben gedaan weten dat dit zo is. 

Terug naar de vrijheid en wat die is voor mij. Ik ben nu al vrij om te doen en te laten wat ik wil. Ik heb geen verplichtingen en hoef ook aan niemand verantwoorden af te leggen voor mijn doen en laten. Wil ik de hele dag in bed blijven liggen dan kan ik dat gewoon doen. Wil ik 's nachts gaan wandelen dan doe ik dat gewoon. Wil ik eten wanneer ik daar behoeft aan heb, dan doe ik dat gewoon en ik kan gaan en staan waar ik wil. Doch, ik heb vaak het gevoel dat er iets ontbreekt. Het is leuk om te doen en te laten wat je wilt, ik zou het ook niet anders willen, maar er mist dus iets. Of misschien knelt er iets waarvan ik mij niet kan/weet te bevrijden.

Ik heb er wel eens diep over nagedacht, maar ik kan dus niet tot een conclusie komen. Misschien zijn het de systemen waarin wij leven die me beknellen of misschien is het een partner in crime die ik mis in het geheel, maar het kan dus ook iets geheel anders zijn zoals een doel of ambities waardoor ik dat beklemmende gevoel heb. Misschien ben ik het zelf wel. Ik heb er nooit een geheim van gemaakt dat ik hier niet wil zijn. Ik hou van het leven, maar niet hier in deze vreselijke zogenaamde samenleving. Wij leven niet samen maar langs elkaar heen. Wel, misschien dat het Universum mij kan antwoorden waarom ik in hemelsnaam hier moet zijn.

Peter68 © ® 08-06-2025
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Doubts

Sometimes I doubt my life. What the hell am I doing here? Why did I come here? I have no ambitions or goals, every day is pretty much the same for me and I am always alone. I am not a people person and the few friends I have I see sporadically. I like to think about life, why we are here on this planet, but I often get stuck on the way things are now. All the ridiculous systems we have to function in and all the laws and regulations.

Then the urge for absolute freedom comes to me, something I have dreamed of since I was a child. Freedom, it is a beautiful word, but it has been abused for decades by politicians and religion. Freedom can be explained differently for everyone. How am I going to explain freedom to me? I am a free thinker and spirit. For me nothing is impossible. You sometimes hear people say, “that's impossible.” Then I think why is that impossible? Is it because it goes against your thinking, because you were taught that way, or perhaps because you don't want it to be possible?

Everything is possible in this Universe, even I am possible so why shouldn't things be possible? We learn something new every day. Two decades ago, scientists thought it was impossible for the sun to cause earthquakes on Earth. Nowadays we know better. The sun is responsible for everything here on earth. From earthquakes, tornadoes, droughts, floods to climate change. Not everyone is on board with theory yet, but most scientists who don't follow the mainstream and have done their homework know this is true.

Back to freedom and what it is for me. I am already free to do whatever I want. I have no obligations and do not have to answer to anyone for my actions. If I want to stay in bed all day, I can just do that. If I want to go for a walk at night, I just do it. If I want to eat when I need to, I just do it and I can go and stand wherever I want. However, I often have the feeling that something is missing. It's fun to do and leave what you want, I wouldn't want it any other way, but something is missing. Or maybe there is something pinching me that I cannot/do not know how to free myself from.

I have thought about it deeply, but I can't come to a conclusion. Maybe it's the systems we live in that are holding me back or maybe it's a partner in crime that I'm missing altogether, but it could also be something completely different like a goal or ambitions that are giving me that oppressive feeling. Maybe it is me. I have never made a secret of the fact that I don't want to be here. I love life, but not here in this horrible so-called society. We do not live together but past each other. Well, maybe the Universe can answer me why on earth I have to be here.

Peter68 © ® 06/08/2025
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Jij bent veranderd - You've changed

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Een tijdje geleden kwam ik iemand tegen die ik nog kende van vroeger op school. Hij zei, je bent veranderd. Ik zeg, is dat niet de bedoeling van het leven? Dat wist die niet, daar had die nog nooit over nagedacht. Innerlijk moest ik lachen. Hij was nog steeds dezelfde persoon die hij altijd was geweest. Ik zeg, alles veranderd. Wetten veranderen, mensen veranderen, de natuur veranderd, zelfs het klimaat waarin wij leven veranderd.

Hij keek me bedenkelijk aan en zei, je bent een veel krachtiger persoon dan je vroeger was. Ik zeg, dan kan kloppen, ik heb alles wat mij klein hielt van mij afgeworpen zoals mijn familie en andere dingen die mij klein hielden. Ik was in het verleden al een rebel "ja zei hij", maar ik heb het een stap verder genomen. Ik laat me door niets en niemand tegenhouden en leef mijn leven zoals ik dat wil. Niet de regering, niet de media, niet bedrijven, niemand niet. Dit is mijn leven en dat leef ik op een manier die voor mij goed voelt en het interesseert mij geen reet wat iemand anders daarvan vind.

Ik keek hem recht in zijn ogen aan en ik zag angst en een rilling ging door zijn lichaam. Ik keek ook naar zijn kleding en schoenen die beplakt waren "net als vroeger" met de grote merken. Nike, Levi's, een T-shirt met daarop de naam van een Amerikaanse stad en een baseball petje met daarop de letter NY staande voor New York. Hij was dus niets meer dan een wandelend reclamebord zoals veel mensen. Hij liet me ook zijn jas zien die die net had gekocht in de stad. Daarop stond de tekst Obey. Ik zeg, jij bent duidelijk nog weinig veranderd, nog steeds rondlopend met alle grote merken op je lichaam. Ja zei die, ik wil er toch een beetje bij horen. Ik zeg, als jij je daar goed bij voelt moet je dat zeker doen. Ik gaf hem een hand, wenste hem het beste en ging er vandoor.

Het heeft mij altijd gefascineerd hoe gemakkelijk mensen zijn te manipuleren en zich daar vaak ook nog goed bij voelen. Zolang ze maar ergens bij kunnen horen zijn ze tevreden. Het is onderdeel van de programmering die de meeste hebben gehad. Bij mij heeft die programmering weinig effect gehad, ik had blijkbaar de juiste firewalls die me hebben gevrijwaard van al die onzin. Het is allemaal een illusie, maar de meeste mensen zien dat helaas niet. Ik heb ook nooit ergens bij willen horen, ik ga altijd mijn eigen weg, los van andere. Veel mensen vinden dat vreemd, je wilt toch ergens bij horen? Nee, ik niet. Ik wil zelf alles ontdekken en observeren. Daarvan kan ik leren en het perfectioneren. Alleen zo kan ik evolueren, want dat ik mijn grootste wens zodat ik nooit meer op deze planeet hoef terug te komen.

Peter68 © ® 29-05-2025
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You've changed

A while ago I ran into someone I knew from school. He said, you've changed. I said, isn't that the purpose of life? He didn't know that, he had never thought about it. I had to laugh inside. He was still the same person he had always been. I said, everything changes. Laws change, people change, nature changes, even the climate in which we live changes.

He looked at me doubtfully and said, you are a much stronger person than you used to be. I said, that may be true, I have thrown off everything that kept me small, such as my family and other things that kept me small. I was already a rebel in the past "yes he said", but I have taken it a step further. I don't let anything or anyone stop me and I live my life the way I want to. Not the government, not the media, not companies, not anyone. This is my life and I live it in a way that feels good to me and I don't give a damn what anyone else thinks about it.

I looked him straight in the eyes and I saw fear and a shiver went through his body. I also looked at his clothes and shoes that were plastered "just like in the old days" with the big brands. Nike, Levi's, a T-shirt with the name of an American city on it and a baseball cap with the letter NY on it, standing for New York. So he was nothing more than a walking billboard like many people. He also showed me his jacket that he had just bought in the city. It said Obey. I say, you clearly haven't changed much, still walking around with all the big brands on your body. Yes, he said, I still want to belong a little. I said, if you feel good about it, you should definitely do it. I shook his hand, wished him the best and left.

It has always fascinated me how easily people can be manipulated and often still feel good about it. As long as they can belong somewhere, they are happy. It is part of the programming that most of them have had. That programming had little effect on me, I apparently had the right firewalls that protected me from all that nonsense. It's all an illusion, but unfortunately most people don't see that. I've never wanted to belong anywhere, I always go my own way, separate from others. Many people find that strange, you want to belong somewhere, don't you? No, I don't. I want to discover and observe everything myself. I can learn from that and perfect it. That's the only way I can evolve, because that's my greatest wish so that I never have to return to this planet.

Peter68 © ® 05/29/2025
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Genietend van de regen - Enjoying the rain

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Ik stond net in de regen een sigaret te roken en een oude herinnering kwam naar boven. Het was op school, we hadden pauze en iedereen was op het schoolplein. Ineens begon het heel hard te regenen. De leraar die buiten was riep iedereen naar binnen. Ik was de enigste die buiten bleef staan. Ondanks roepen bleef ik rustig staan en genoot van de regen. De leraar kwam boos naar me toe. Peter naar binnen zei die. Nu ben ik ook nat omdat JIJ niet luistert. Ik zeg, laat me dan gewoon hier staan, het is nog pauze. Hij pakte me bij mijn arm en wilde me naar binnen slepen. Ik trok me los en rende weg. Peter!! Hier komen en naar binnen riep die. NEE! Riep ik. Ik kom wanneer de bel gaat en niet eerder.

Hij schudden zijn hoofd en zei, wordt dan maar ziek. Vijf minuten later ging de bel en ging ik drijfnat naar binnen en moest me melden bij de directeur die me verwijtend aankeek. Van hem kreeg ik een heel verhaal dat ik moest luisteren als de leraar mij iets opdroeg. Jij bent hier op school en als wij jou iets opdragen moet je dat doen. Ik keek hem lachend en rebels aan en zei, ik heb nooit gevraagd om hier te zijn en ik ben je slaaf niet. Hij keek me wat verbluft aan, ik draaide me om en liep weg, gooide de deur van zijn kamer een beetje hard dicht en ging naar mijn klas.

Thuis kreeg ik de vraag wat er was gebeurd. Ik vertelde dat ik stond te genieten van de regen en dat zij mij dwongen om naar binnen te gaan. Altijd als het hard regende was ik buiten te vinden waar ik stond te genieten van de regen. Dus thuis begrepen ze het wel. Mijn leiding belde de school en legde het uit, maar ik had inderdaad niet zo brutaal mogen zijn. De volgende dag vroegen de kinderen uit mijn klas op ik op mijn donder had gehad? Ik zeg nee, ik hou gewoon van de regen en als ik daarin wil staan dan doe ik dat. Ze keken me een beetje vreemd aan op een meisje na die zei, ik vind het ook lekker om in de regen te lopen. Ik zeg, kom er dan de volgende keer gezellig bij staan. Die volgende keer kwam nooit, twee maanden later verhuisde ik en ging naar een andere school.

Peter 68 © ® 27-05-2025
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Enjoying the rain

I was just standing in the rain smoking a cigarette and an old memory came up. It was at school, we had a break and everyone was in the school yard. Suddenly it started to rain very hard. The teacher who was outside called everyone inside. I was the only one who stayed outside. Despite the shouting I remained standing calmly and enjoyed the rain. The teacher came to me angrily. Peter, come inside he said. Now I'm wet too because YOU don't listen. I said, just leave me here, it's still break time. He grabbed my arm and wanted to drag me inside. I pulled away and ran away. Peter!! Come here and come inside he shouted. NO! I shouted. I'll come when the bell rings and not before.

He shook his head and said, get sick then. Five minutes later the bell rang and I went inside soaking wet and had to report to the principal who looked at me reproachfully. He gave me a whole story that I had to listen to when the teacher ordered me to do something. You are here at school and if we tell you to do something you have to do it. I looked at him laughing and rebellious and said, I never asked to be here and I am not your slave. He looked at me a bit stunned, I turned around and walked away, slammed the door of his room a bit hard and went to my class.

At home I was asked what had happened. I told them that I was enjoying the rain and that they forced me to go inside. Whenever it rained hard I could always be found outside where I was enjoying the rain. So at home they understood. My supervisor called the school and explained, but I really shouldn't have been so rude. The next day the children in my class asked if I had been scolded? I said no, I just like the rain and if I want to stand in it then I will. They looked at me a bit strangely except for one girl who said, I also like walking in the rain. I said, come and stand with them next time. That next time never came, two months later I moved and went to another school.

Peter68 © ® 05/27/2025
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Natuurlijke verbinding - Natural connection

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Sommige zullen het misschien vreemd vinden, maar ik heb een natuurlijke diepe verbinding met de natuur. De natuur is mijn tweede thuis op deze planeet. Zonder haar zou ik niet kunnen overleven. Het is voor mij daarom soms ook moeilijk te begrijpen dat mensen nu massaal bezig zijn met kunstmatige technologie, of terwijl AI. Ik zal AI zelf nooit gebruiken, het gaat tegen mijn gut gevoel in en ik heb van sommige mensen ook al begrepen dat AI regelmatig flinke fouten maakt of zelf dingen verzint. Deze mensen zijn inmiddels om die redenen ook gestopt met het gebruik van AI technologie.

Wanneer ik in de natuur ben dan voel ik echt alles wat zich daar bevind. De bomen, de struiken, de dieren, maar ook de krachten daarachter. Het is echt een wonderlijk iets dat ik dat zo allemaal kan voelen, maar het is ook helemaal ik. Ik denk dat mensen me daarom vroeger altijd wegstuurde omdat ik anders dacht, sprak en voelde. Er zijn niet veel mensen die dit kunnen beamen, twee of drie zielenzussen die erbij waren toen er een innerlijke verbinding was tussen mij en de natuur. Vorig jaar was ik aan het wandelen met een goede vriendin die het wel heeft gemerkt. De verbinding die ik plots had met een boom, de Havik "mijn totemdier" die luid krijsend boven ons vloog, het was iets magisch op dat moment.

Afgelopen middag liep is door Wageningen en bewonderde de natuur langs de weg. Ik stond bij een prachtige oude kastanjeboom, vlak daarnaast stond een vlierbessen struik. Beiden stonden in bloei vol met prachtige bloesems. Ik zei tegen mezelf, wat is de natuur toch mooi, ik hou zo van haar. Op het moment dat ik deze woorden uitsprak schoten spontaan de tranen in mijn ogen en ik voelde de liefdevolle energie van de natuur rond mijn hart. Het was ook weer een magisch moment waar ik heel dankbaar voor ben. Maar zoals gezegd, vele zullen het niet begrijpen. 

Peter68 © ® 26-05-2025
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Natural connection

Some may find it strange, but I have a natural deep connection with nature. Nature is my second home on this planet. Without it, I would not be able to survive. That is why it is sometimes difficult for me to understand that people are now massively involved with artificial technology, or AI. I will never use AI myself, it goes against my gut feeling and I have also understood from some people that AI regularly makes big mistakes or makes things up itself. These people have now also stopped using AI technology for those reasons.

When I am in nature, I really feel everything that is there. The trees, the bushes, the animals, but also the forces behind it. It is really a wonderful thing that I can feel all that, but it is also completely me. I think that is why people used to send me away because I thought, spoke and felt differently. There are not many people who can confirm this, two or three soul sisters who were there when there was an inner connection between me and nature. Last year I was walking with a good girlfriend who did notice it. The connection I suddenly had with a tree, the Hawk "my totem animal" that flew loudly screeching above us, it was something magical at that moment.

This afternoon I walked through Wageningen and admired the nature along the road. I stood by a beautiful old chestnut tree, right next to it was an elderberry bush. Both were in bloom full of beautiful blossoms. I said to myself, how beautiful nature is, I love it so much. The moment I said these words tears spontaneously came to my eyes and I felt the loving energy of nature around my heart. It was also a magical moment for which I am very grateful. But as I said, many will not understand it. 

Peter68 © ® 05/25/2025
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Airborne wandeltocht - Airborne walking tour

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Ik las in de plaatselijke courant "de enigste courant waar ik wel eens een blik in werp" dat de voorverkoop voor de Airborne wandeltocht in Oosterbeek reeds was begonnen. Iedere eerste Zaterdag van September wordt deze tocht gehouden ter herdenking van de slag om Arnhem in 1944. Het is dit jaar de 78ste editie van deze eendaagse wandeltocht, het grootste eendaagse wandeltocht van Nederland.

Ieder jaar lopen zo'n 30 tot 35 duizend mensen deze wandeltocht die je leidt langs belangrijke plaatsen tijdens de slag om Arnhem. De verschillende landingsplaatsen van parachutisten, plaatsen waar hevig is gevochten om Arnhem überhaupt te kunnen bereiken en natuurlijk de Airborne begraafplaats op de grens van Arnhem en Oosterbeek waar vele gesneuvelde soldaten liggen begraven.

Je kunt zelf kiezen hoeveel kilometer je gaat lopen. 10, 15, 25 of 40 kilometer. De laatste heb ik nog nooit gelopen maar voert je over de Ginkelse heide waar parachutisten zijn geland en waar dus ook hevig is gevochten. Alle afstanden leiden je door dorpen en de prachtige natuur waarin zij zijn gelegen. De dorpen Renkum en Oosterbeek waren vroeger kunstenaar kolonies. Oosterbeek herbergt ook het Airborne museum, dus ook al ga je niet wandelen, er is heel veel te doen en te bezichtigen voor jong en oud. Voor meer informatie, klik op onderstaande link.

Airborne Wandeltocht

Peter68 © ® 19-05-2025
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Airborne walking tour

I read in the local newspaper "the only newspaper I ever look at" that the pre-sale for the Airborne walking tour in Oosterbeek had already started. Every first Saturday of September this tour is held to commemorate the Battle of Arnhem in 1944. This year it is the 78th edition of this one-day walking tour, the largest one-day walking tour in the Netherlands.

Every year about 30 to 35 thousand people walk this walking tour that takes you past important places during the Battle of Arnhem. The various landing sites of paratroopers, places where there was heavy fighting to reach Arnhem and of course the Airborne cemetery on the border of Arnhem and Oosterbeek where many fallen soldiers are buried.

You can choose how many kilometres you want to walk. 10, 15, 25 or 40 kilometres. I have never walked the last one, but it takes you over the Ginkelse heath where paratroopers landed and where there was heavy fighting. All distances lead you through villages and the beautiful nature in which they are located. The villages of Renkum and Oosterbeek used to be artist colonies. Oosterbeek also houses the Airborne museum, so even if you don't go for a walk, there is a lot to do and see for young and old. For more information, click on the link below.

Airborne Walking Tour

Peter68 © ® 05-19-2025
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Natuurlijke balans - Natural balance

 

Sometimes I daydream about the things that are coming. Sometimes I wonder if we are ready for that? We are still engaged in barbaric wars, in which we slaughter our brothers and sisters because they believe something different. We are still plundering the earth in the name of the economy and short-sighted wealth. Many are still guided by what the media tells them. And many are still trapped in all kinds of systems that they cannot do without.

The old world is slowly collapsing, but many continue as if nothing is wrong. They have hidden themselves in modern technology where they hope to be protected from the worst blows. But when the old world collapses, technology will take the worst blows, that is a fact. And it may sound strange, but I saw it back in Atlantis when it collapsed and was eventually swallowed by the sea.

What was the problem in Atlantis? The frequency had become impure, something that also happens in this world. For example, in 1936 the music frequency was changed from 432 Hz to 440 Hz. 432 Hz provides more peace, lowers your heart rate and ensures that you live more in your heart and less in your head. Now we are stuck with all kinds of unnatural radiation from telephones and wifi.

In Atlantis they were also working with frequencies of crystals. At a certain point they were able to manipulate the frequencies of these crystals and that is where it went horribly wrong. Atlantis became out of balance with the earth frequency and so nature could do nothing but let Atlantis disappear to restore the balance. And also in the present we are again tinkering with frequencies which disrupts the balance of the earth. And also now at the moment that the earth is ascending from 3D to 6D.

The earth will ascend to 6D, which cannot be stopped by anything or anyone, unless we blow up the entire planet, but I think and hope that we are not so stupid to do that. I also know that alien races will never allow that, because the earth is a very important planet in the whole. I cannot explain why that is so, that would take too long. What I can say is that many different alien races incarnate here, so you can imagine the importance of the earth a little.

Peter68 © ® 05/15/2025
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Veranderingen - Shifts

(Radix for May 25th, 2025, 08:26 (UT/GMT)

There is a lot going on in the astrological and energy field. For example, Neptune enters Aries at the end of March and Saturn will do the same on May 25. Pluto is doing its first retrograde in Aquarius. In recent years it has been going back to Capricorn, but now it will remain in Aquarius. In January of this year, the north and south nodes also went from Aries and Libra to Pisces and Virgo. These are very big shifts in the astrological field that we can feel very clearly in the energy.

As an Aries, I am not looking forward to Saturn in Aries because Saturn is restrictive, but I will have to make do with it until April 14, 2028. Then Saturn will move into Taurus. But until then, we have to make do with Saturn in Aries with a small break from September 2, 2025 to February 15, 2026. If you want to know more about Saturn in Aries, read this piece by astrologer Tanaaz. She is my favourite astrologer, she knows what she is writing about and also knows how to express it clearly so that everyone can understand it well.

All these shifts in the astrological and energy field are part of a larger cosmic shift that is going on. As I have written before, not only is the earth changing, the other planets in our galaxy are also changing. In 50 to 75 years they will also have a different meaning in astrology. Not so much because of these changes, but because we will then know their deeper meaning better. But that is still a long way off and who knows, humanity might not be on planet Earth by then. There is still a lot waiting for us that will blow some minds.

I have to admit that I sometimes have a hard time with all these changes. I don't like changes anyway, unless I make them myself, but in general I like to keep things the way they are. So you can imagine how hard I sometimes have it with all the changes that are taking place in the field of technology. I grew up in the analogue era and I liked that better than the digital era we live in now. And in the not too distant future we will move to the quantum era where everything will go much faster. That is also the era in which many people will integrate technology into their bodies, something I will never do, even if it is mandatory. Then they can just shoot me dead.

All kinds of agendas are being worked on in the background that are not in the interest of humanity. People don't see that because they are distracted daily with war and entertainment, but by 2030 or 2035 everyone will be chipped so that the government can see exactly what you are doing and where you are. They can also see whether you are adhering to their rules regarding, for example, climate, how much water, electricity or food you use. No, the future does not look bright if these people get their way. So it is up to us to set boundaries about what we do or do not want. Do we want freedom or slavery?

Peter68 © ® 05/13/2025
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Innerlijke processen II - Inner processes II

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Bij iedere nieuw of volle Maan is een van de opdrachten om los te laten wat je niet meer dient. En bij iedere nieuwe of volle Maan probeer ik dat heel trouw te doen. Toch lukt het mij nog steeds niet om alle boosheid en verdriet die in mij zit los te laten. 😭 Het blijft maar aan mij vreten en maakt mij langzaamaan helemaal kapot.

Ik heb me al heel vaak afgevraagd waarom het maar niet wil lukken om deze grote brok los te laten. Ik bedoel, ik heb iedereen vergeven, inclusief mezelf. Het is zelfs zo dat ik volkomen begrijp waarom ze hebben gehandeld zoals ze hebben gehandeld. Toch, iedere keer wanneer zo'n herinnering bij me naar boven komt voel ik een groot vuur 🔥 van boosheid in mij ontwaken, maar ook een zee 🌊 van verdriet en moet ik de grootste moeite doen om niet als een vulkaan te ontploffen. 🌋

Er zijn niet veel dingen waar ik bang voor ben, behalve vogels en het beest dat in mij huist. Een van mijn grootste wensen is omdat beest onschadelijk te maken. Nee niet doden, ik heb dat recht niet. Bovendien, het is een deel van mij en ik wil mezelf absoluut geen pijn doen. Ik heb in mijn leven meer dan genoeg fysieke en psychische pijn geleden, dus nee!

Bovendien, hoe kan ik van mijzelf houden als ik niet ieder aspect van mijzelf accepteer? Ik denk de laatste tijd vaak terug aan de heerlijke gesprekken die ik in mijn jeugdjaren voerde met mijn kinderpsychiater Dr.Hütter. Hij was verbonden aan mijn eerste kindertehuis waar ik 6 jaar heb gewoond. In dat kindertehuis werd de leer van Dr. Rudolf Steiner onderwezen. Dat heeft mij toen vaak goed geholpen. Het was voor mij een soort van houvast in de familieoorlog die zich boven mijn hoofd afspeelde.

Dr.Hütter leerde mij nog beter voor mezelf na te denken. Hij zei vaak, fuck je familie, dit is jouw leven, dus jij bepaald wat daar in gebeurd. Hij noemde mijn familie zelfs een keer een stelletje assholes die met mijn leven probeerde te spelen. Of nee, die mij als speelbal gebruikten. Ik mis Dr.Hütter nu soms. We hadden altijd hoogstaande intelligente gesprekken samen. Hij zag mij niet als een kind, maar als een volwassenen die een beetje teveel op zijn bord had gekregen.

Maar goed, we modderen maar weer verder. Zoals het gezegde zegt, ik worstel en kom boven. Ik hoop dat ik snel boven ga komen, dit kost namelijk heel erg veel energie. Ik heb op het moment ook niemand waar ik even mee kan kletsen, als ik de woorden al weet te vinden. Misschien dat de energie van Mei me verder kan helpen met Venus (vandaag) en Neptunus (morgen) in mijn eigen sterrenbeeld Ram. ♈️

Peter68 © ® 30-04-2025
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Inner processes II

With every new or full moon, one of the assignments is to let go of what no longer serves you. And with every new or full moon, I try to do that very faithfully. Yet I still can't seem to let go of all the anger and sadness that is inside me. 😭 It keeps eating away at me and is slowly destroying me completely.

I have often wondered why I just can't seem to let go of this big chunk. I mean, I have forgiven everyone, including myself. In fact, I completely understand why they acted the way they did. Yet, every time such a memory comes to mind, I feel a great fire 🔥 of anger awakening within me, but also a sea 🌊 of sadness and I have to make every effort not to explode like a volcano. 🌋

There are not many things I am afraid of, except birds and the beast that lives inside me. One of my greatest wishes is to render that beast harmless. No, not to kill it, I do not have that right. Besides, it is a part of me and I absolutely do not want to hurt myself. I have suffered more than enough physical and psychological pain in my life, so no!

Besides, how can I love myself if I do not accept every aspect of myself? I often think back to the wonderful conversations I had with my child psychiatrist Dr. Hütter in my youth. He was affiliated with my first children's home where I lived for 6 years. In that children's home, the teachings of Dr. Rudolf Steiner were taught. That often helped me a lot at the time. It was a kind of support for me in the family war that was going on above my head.

Dr. Hütter taught me to think for myself even better. He often said, fuck your family, this is your life, so you decide what happens in it. He even called my family a bunch of assholes who tried to play with my life. Or no, who used me as a plaything. I miss Dr. Hütter sometimes now. We always had high-level intelligent conversations together. He didn't see me as a child, but as an adult who had a bit too much on his plate.

Anyway, we'll just muddle along. As the saying goes, I struggle and come out on top. I hope I'll come out on top soon, because this takes a lot of energy. I also don't have anyone to chat with at the moment, if I can even find the words. Maybe the energy of May can help me further with Venus (today) and Neptune (tomorrow) in my own zodiac sign Aries. ♈️

Peter68 © ® 30-04-2025
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Innerlijke processen - Internal processes

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De afgelopen maand is niet gemakkelijk voor mij geweest. En dan doel ik op spiritueel/emotioneel. Ik heb ook niet "zoals andere jaren" optimaal kunnen genieten van mijn eigen Ram seizoen. Voordat ik het in de gaten had was het alweer voorbij. Vooral de afgelopen dagen waren loodzwaar waarbij is soms serieus heb overwogen om de stekker uit dit leven te trekken. Maar goed, dat zou dan betekenen dat ik opgeef en een Ram en ik geven niet op. Wij knokken door tot we erbij neervallen. En dan nog proberen we om door te gaan. 💪🏻

Heb begon zo'n beetje de dag na mijn verjaardag (22-03) dat ik me niet meer lekker in mijn vel voelde zitten. Ik ga dan innerlijk zoeken naar de oorzaak of oorzaken, maar dat leverde me alleen meer ellende op. Langzaam maar zeker zakte ik steeds dieper in allerlei dingen en daarbij kwam oude dingen naar boven waarvan ik dacht en hoopte dat ik ze had verwerkt. Nee dus, er waren nog flinke kluiven waar ik me op moest storten. Vele tranen hebben gevloeid afgelopen maand.

Herinneringen uit mijn jeugd, uit mijn huwelijk en relaties van daarna. Zo vaak dat ik aan mezelf heb getwijfeld, dat ik mensen toen heb gewaarschuwd dat ik zwaar beschadigd was en dat het misschien beter was om wat afstand van mij te bewaren. Maar nee, men wilde bij mij zijn, zich met mij verbinden en sommige dachten zelfs dat ze mij konden helen. En ik zal eerlijk toegeven dat sommige een goede bijdrage hebben geleverd, maar als ik over bepaalde dingen zelf niet het inzicht krijg, kan er ook geen heling plaatsvinden. Alleen door zelf diep in mijn eigen innerlijke spiegel te kijken kan ik helen. Maar dank aan alle "vrouwen/zielenzussen" die een bijdrage hebben geleverd aan de man/mens die ik nu ben.

En na deze zware maand in Ram/Stier ben ik er nog niet. April was een brugmaand en in mei gaan zo'n beetje alle remmen los. En als wij dachten dat de afgelopen 5 jaar een rollercoaster rit was, dan trek je stoelriemen nog maar eens stevig aan, mei, juni, juli en augustus gaan voor sommige mensen echt een hel worden. Dit hebben ze vooral aan zichzelf te wijten omdat ze hun innerlijke werk niet hebben gedaan, bang als ze zijn om in hun eigen innerlijke spiegel te kijken. Maar ook voor de mensen die wel hun innerlijke werk hebben gedaan zal het zeker niet gemakkelijk gaan worden. Sterkte gewenst dus aan iedereen de komende maanden. Steun elkaar, stop met het verdelen, de giftige spelletjes en wees lief voor elkaar.

Peter68 © ® 27-04-2025
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Inner processes

The past month has not been easy for me. And I mean spiritually/emotionally. I have not been able to enjoy my own Aries season optimally "like other years". Before I knew it, it was over again. The past few days in particular have been extremely tough, and I have sometimes seriously considered pulling the plug on this life. But anyway, that would mean that I would give up and Aries and I do not give up. We will fight until we drop. And then we will still try to continue.

It started about the day after my birthday (22-03) that I no longer felt comfortable in my own skin. I then search internally for the cause or causes, but that only brought me more misery. Slowly but surely I sank deeper and deeper into all kinds of things and old things came up that I thought and hoped I had processed. No, there were still some tough things that I had to tackle. Many tears have flowed last month.

Memories from my youth, from my marriage and relationships after that. So often that I doubted myself, that I warned people then that I was badly damaged and that it might be better to keep some distance from me. But no, people wanted to be with me, to connect with me and some even thought they could heal me. And I will honestly admit that some have made a good contribution, but if I do not gain insight into certain things myself, healing cannot take place. Only by looking deeply into my own inner mirror can I heal. But thanks to all the "women/soul sisters" who have contributed to the man/person that I am now.

And after this heavy month in Aries/Taurus I am not there yet. April was a bridge month and in May almost all brakes are released. And if we thought that the past 5 years were a rollercoaster ride, then tighten your seat belts again, May, June, July and August are really going to be hell for some people. This is mainly their own fault because they have not done their inner work, afraid as they are to look in their own inner mirror. But it will certainly not be easy for the people who have done their inner work. So I wish everyone strength in the coming months. Support each other, stop dividing, the toxic games and be kind to each other.

Peter68 © ® 04/27/2025
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Herdenking - Memorial

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Tijdens de tweede wereldoorlog werden 125 van mijn familie weggevoerd naar verschillende concentratiekampen in Europa. Van deze 125 familieleden kwamen er slechts 7 terug na de oorlog waaronder mijn opa die gevangen had gezeten in een Pools officierenkamp. Hij was luitenant kolonel in het Nederlandse leger. Deze 125 mensen "mannen, vrouwen en kinderen" waren gevangen gezet omdat ze of een Joodse achtergrond hadden of omdat ze mogelijk in het verzet zaten of waren gelieerd.

De tijd in dat mijn opa in het officierenkamp had gevangen gezeten had een diepe impact op hem gemaakt. Hij was niet meer de man die hij ooit was geweest. Bij terugkomst in Nederland werd hij door de Nederlandse regering gedwongen om te gaan vechten in Indonesië wat toen nog een kolonie was van Nederland. Hij werd gedwongen om te gaan. Als hij zou weigeren zou zijn gezin iets overkomen.

Hij kon dus niets anders doen dan gaan om zijn gezin te beschermen, een vrouw met twee kinderen die waren geboren tijdens de oorlog. Mijn opa was eind 1942 opgepakt. Het officierenkamp waar die zat was bevrijd door de Russen begin 1945, maar het duurde tot eind juni 1945 voordat die weer thuis was. De blijdschap was natuurlijk groot met zijn thuiskomst, maar deze blijdschap zou dus niet lang duren.

Waarom wilde mijn opa niet gaan vechten in Indonesië? Wel, wat hij had veel meegemaakt in het Poolse officierenkamp en dat was hem niet in de koude kleren gaan zitten. Een ander feit was dat mijn opa voor vrijheid was, de vrijheid van Indonesië om zelf te bepalen. Daarin stond hij niet alleen. Zijn voorvaders hadden ook altijd gestreden voor de vrijheid. Dat was al zo toen mijn voorouders naar de Nederlanden kwamen met het leger van de Spaanse generaal Alva. Zodra ze hier waren en begrepen wat er precies gaande was liepen ze over naar de Nederlanders. Er zijn zelfs familieverhalen dat mijn verre voorvader bij Delft heeft gestreden aan de zijde van Prins Willem van Oranje. Of dat waar is weet ik niet, ik was er niet bij.

Op 4 mei herdenken wij in Nederland altijd de doden die zijn gevallen tijdens de tweede wereldoorlog in Nederland. De Joodse slachtoffers, maar ook de zigeuners, homo's, geestelijk beperkte, anders denkende, politieke tegenstanders en de verzetsmensen. Helaas is deze herdenking in Nederland gekaapt door opportunisten. Hij is politiek en gewapend geworden. Iedereen denkt er zijn eigen ideologie aan te moeten plakken en haalt er de huidige oorlogen in de wereld bij. Maar dan heb je het niet begrepen naar mijn idee. 4 mei is om de slachtoffers te herdenken die zijn gevallen tijden de tweede wereldoorlog in het Koninkrijk der Nederlanden die in Nederland plaatsvond tussen 10 mei 1940 en 5 mei 1945. Dus niet de huidige oorlogen in de Oekraïne, Jemen, Afrika, Verweggistan en Palestina/Israël.

Peter68 © ® 24/27-04-2025
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Memorial

During the second world war 125 members of my family were taken to different concentration camps in Europe. Of these 125 family members only 7 returned after the war including my grandfather who had been imprisoned in a Polish officers camp. He was a Lieutenant Colonel in the Dutch army. These 125 people "men, women and children" were imprisoned because they had a Jewish background or because they were possibly in the resistance or were affiliated.

The time my grandfather was imprisoned in the officers' camp had a deep impact on him. He was no longer the man he had once been. When he returned to the Netherlands, he was forced by the Dutch government to go and fight in Indonesia, which was then still a colony of the Netherlands. He was forced to go. If he refused, something would happen to his family.

So he had no choice but to go to protect his family, a woman with two children who had been born during the war. My grandfather was arrested at the end of 1942. The officers' camp where he was, was liberated by the Russians at the beginning of 1945, but it took until the end of June 1945 before he was back home. Of course, there was great joy at his return, but this joy would not last long.

Why did my grandfather not want to go and fight in Indonesia? Well, what he had experienced in the Polish officers' camp had not left him cold. Another fact was that my grandfather was for freedom, the freedom of Indonesia to decide for itself. He was not alone in this. His ancestors had also always fought for freedom. That was already the case when my ancestors came to the Netherlands with the army of the Spanish general Alva. As soon as they were here and understood what exactly was going on, they defected to the Dutch. There are even family stories that my distant ancestor fought at Delft on the side of Prince William of Orange. I do not know whether that is true, I was not there.

On May 4, we in the Netherlands always commemorate the dead who fell during the Second World War in the Netherlands. The Jewish victims, but also the gypsies, homosexuals, mentally handicapped, differently thinking, political opponents and the resistance fighters. Unfortunately, this Memorial in the Netherlands has been hijacked by opportunists. It has become political and armed. Everyone thinks they have to attach their own ideology to it and brings up the current wars in the world. But then you have not understood it in my opinion. May 4 is to commemorate the victims who fell during the Second World War in the Kingdom of the Netherlands, which took place in the Netherlands between May 10, 1940 and May 5, 1945. So not the current wars in Ukraine, Yemen, Africa, Farawayistan and Palestine/Israel.

Peter68 © ® 04/24-27/2025
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The COMPLETE STORY of The Gnostic Gospels – Every Spiritualist Must Know This

This resonates with me so much. As a young child I already had problems with the Catholic church. I often had heated discussions with my pastor at the time and sometimes drove him crazy. It was even so bad that I was no longer welcome at school during religious education. I was certain that things were not as the Catholic church wanted me to believe. So I have never been a convinced Catholic. In the past I have also studied the Bible, the Torah, the Koran and a number of Buddhist books because I was curious about the truth. In the last decade I seem to find this truth more and more in the Gnostic faith. This does not mean that I now consider myself a member of the Gnostic faith. My faith is Love and Nature is my church, but much of what the Gnostic faith tells me resonates enormously with me, more than what Catholicism, Protestantism, Islam or Judaism tell me. In this respect, Buddhism is closest to the Gnostic faith for me.

Peter68 ©® 04/26/2025
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When a man loves a woman?

There is something strange going on in the relationship world. I see videos here and there of people who are looking for a relationship. The moment they think they have found someone, they are presented with a whole list of requirements that they just have to meet.

And just to be clear, I know that a lot of videos are fake, they are just there for the likes because they can make money with them. Yes, you heard/read it right, you can make money with likes. The more likes you have, the more interesting you become to advertisers. I don't participate in that. I'm not a fan of money, although it is convenient and I don't like advertisers.

Back to those videos. So I've been watching some of the ones that I know were real. That was absolutely ridiculous. Before you even go out with someone, you are expected to pay $2,000 so that your date can get a haircut, get her nails done, or get a new wardrobe for herself. And then the first date still has to take place.

And you're also expected to get a haircut, have your nails done, and pick her up in an expensive sports car for the first date. And I'm not talking about a lousy BMW, those are out. You have to at least arrive with a Mercedes, Maserati or something more expensive if you want to be appreciated.

Once you have done all that and survived, you will receive a list of demands that you better meet, otherwise it will be over quickly. Such a list can include anything from how much pocket money you're going to give her per week, how much time you have to spend with her, how often you're going to do it during the week to not being allowed to see your friends anymore. And then I haven't even mentioned the discussions about who brings what to the table in the relationship.

I've thought about starting a new relationship, but if that's the way it has to be these days, then never mind. I am an old-fashioned man who believes in true unconditional love and in a relationship that is not about money or who brings what to the table, but consists of love, harmony, equality and respect for each other. I do not understand why everything has to be so incredibly difficult these days. All those rules, signals and requirements beforehand. Act normal, then you are already acting crazy enough, they used to say.

Peter68 © ® 04/16/2025
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Astrologische verschuivingen / Astrology shifts

We have had a lot to digest over the past three months, astrologically speaking. Planets that were retrograde and in our opinion blocked the energy and planets that changed star signs, which suddenly caused us to deal with a completely different energy. And the sun and the Universe themselves have also made their presence felt. Solar storms, proton storms and neutron bombardments have had their impact on all of us.

At the time of writing this article, Mercury, Venus and the North Node are retrograde. It is striking that everything is retrograde in the Pisces zodiac sign. Mercury will go direct again next Tuesday, Venus will leave the underworld on April 13 and then appear as a morning star. Then we have about three weeks in which all the planets are direct. That will change on May 4 when Pluto will go retrograde in Aquarius until October 14.

Today 04/04/2025 is a portal day. In exactly one month it will be busy in the zodiac sign Aries, because Neptune, Venus, Mercury and Chiron are all in Aries. A real Aries party, although I have to say honestly that it can be a very rough party. April is a bridge month, a month in which we can recover a bit from everything that has happened in our own lives but also in the world in the past three months.

Wars, peace or no peace, a call for rearmament, heavy earthquakes caused by the sun, strange and sometimes very violent weather with hurricanes, tornadoes, droughts, floods, ice rains and a huge number of volcanoes that erupt or are about to erupt. If you think that planet Earth is a peaceful holiday paradise, you will be disappointed. From May onwards we will experience many more crazy, strange and intense things. Then almost all brakes will be released and we will really feel like we are on a roller coaster.

So enjoy the good life for a while longer in the coming weeks. No, I don't want to scare anyone, but 2025 is a 9 year, a closing year, and we still have a lot of loose ends that we need to work on. Not only on a personal level, but certainly also on a global level. What do we do with Ukraine, what do we do with Russia? How do we deal with the trade restrictions that President Trump has imposed on just about every country in the world. Will Saturn, which enters Aries on May 25, do anything about that? Saturn is the planet of order and authority.

Saturn is also in trine with Uranus, the planet of revolution and surprises. Saturn is also making a trine with Mars in Leo. Mars is the ruler of both Aries and Scorpio and the lord of war. Leo and Aries are two fire signs that do not like imposed restrictions, they want and demand freedom. This is just to give you an idea of what can come. Of course, it doesn't have to become a heated mess if people treat each other with respect and are open to reasonable arguments, but you never know in this crazy clown world.

Peter68 © ® 04/04/2025
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Another year older

 

On March 22, I will be another year older. When I look back, you sometimes wonder how I did it all? I mean, I have experienced an incredible amount in my life. A lot of bad things that I know many people would end their lives for. And yes, I have made many attempts in the past to take my own life, but for one reason or another I was saved or something went wrong and the attempt also ended in failure.

My childhood years were terrible. I lived in children's homes after my father's second wife had judged that I did not fit into the picture of a happy family. I was rebellious, curious, always followed my own intuition and laughed at my father and his second wife when I was punished for things that I often had not even done. No, I was not a saint, as I already wrote I was rebellious, but that was often also out of anger that my father had abandoned my mother. My mother passed away in 1972 and no one told me what death meant. That didn't happen until I was 8 years old.

So I was excluded by my father and his second wife and ended up with my mother's family. Good people in principle, but they had no empathy at all. I think they have caused the greatest damage in my life, something that I have worked hard to process and come to terms with for years. It taught me a lot about people. That's why I'm still very careful about just letting people into my life. You really have to be very special if I want to consider you my boyfriend or girlfriend.

Anyway, after psychological and physical abuse, drug addiction, being homeless, wandering, getting divorced and also losing your children in that divorce, there comes a time when you have the opportunity to work on yourself. To be able to heal old wounds and find yourself completely in a place where you originally come from, nature. I have a number of sweet soul sisters who I love dearly and are also my best girlfriends.

They have done and meant a lot to me. They still do, by the way, but in mother nature I have completely found myself again. One of those soul sisters also experienced that live last year when we were walking in the woods of Doorwerth. That was such a magical experience for both of us. I felt mother nature completely and my totem animal the Hawk flew above us. It was as if we were standing outside of time for a moment.

What I want to say with this piece is, no matter how fucking bad your life may be, don't give up, ask the Universe/God or whatever you believe in for help. Be open to that help. Always listen to your intuition and not to the media or people who claim to have your best interests at heart. Usually that means that they have their own interests in mind and you are just a cog in that. Follow your intuition, be critical, don't just take everything for granted, think for yourself and do research first. If you listen carefully to your intuition, you will quickly find out who is good and who is bad for you. You can then filter out your real friends. Oh, and also important, don't let others walk all over you, you are not a doormat. Do not enter into conflict, if there is a threat, withdraw for a moment and calmly look at the matter carefully from all sides before drawing conclusions.

Peter68 © ® 03/21/2025
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World family

With the following I write I do not want to offend anyone, it is just my view of the world. So it is not about people/persons but about countries and their governments.

There are officially 195 UN recognised countries in the world and 40 unrecognised countries. These countries are often dependent on their "former" colonial owner. Think for example of Greenland (Denmark) and Gibraltar (UK). You rarely or never hear anything about most countries in the news, which is not to say that everything is going well there. Every country has its problems, but they are not all suitable to become world news.

The countries we hear about the most are America, Israel, Russia, Ukraine, Palestine, China, India, Taiwan, Iraq, Iran, Sudan, Yemen, South Africa, Cuba, Canada, Brazil, Mexico, Hungary, Poland, Romania, Kenya and Sweden. So things happen there that make world news. Usually it concerns a drastic plan of the government there, war, arms trade, import duties, stock market news, mass murders, rapes, oppression of population groups or the entire population, drug trade or natural disasters.

I am not an active follower of the news. I do not watch TV, do not read newspapers, do not listen to the radio, I do not have a smartphone and I do not follow news sites on the internet. I have nothing with those lying mainstream media that lies to people and tries to manipulate them. Yet certain headlines manage to reach me via Twitter, the only platform where I am active. Facebook has blocked me because I spoke the truth, I'm not allowed to post alternative news, they thought I made money with the links I shared "like from this blog" and that is not allowed according to there rules. I don't make money with websites. I know it is possible, but I am simply not interested in that. Then you also have to allow advertisements and I don't want that. I don't like advertisements, they are all lies and manipulation.

What I often wonder is why certain countries behave the way they do? America behaves like a spoiled child, Russia behaves like a big bully, Israel behaves like an autistic person who always gets his way because he is autistic, many Muslim countries are quick to worry when others say something and then we haven't even talked about the victim behaviour that many countries display. Something that my own country the Netherlands is also good at. The Calimero behaviour, they are big and I am small, that is not fair. The truth is, the Netherlands is one of the most powerful countries in the world. Not militarily, but mainly technologically and communication. The Netherlands has an extensive communication network all over the world and the Dutch royal house has strong ties with almost all royal houses, from Japan to Norway.

It often saddens me when I see how countries, governments and certain people treat each other. I often wonder why they do it that way? Is it in the interest of the country you represent? Does it make you better yourself or are you just like that? I am someone who likes to help others if I can. As a child I once had the idea that if all rich countries adopt one or two poor countries for say five to ten years then hunger and poverty can be eradicated from the world within 25 years. We are on this earth to help each other get through life, not to kill and vilify each other. Unfortunately, most countries/governments do not understand that or have a dark agenda that is not in the interest of their citizens.

Peter68 © ® 03/17/2025
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Geloof - religie / Faith - religion

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Regelmatig denk ik na over geloof en religie. Ik heb vroeger alle grote religies (Christelijk, Joods, Moslim, en boeddhisme) meerdere keren uitvoering bestudeerd en er staan soms waardevolle dingen in die boeken, maar ook veel dingen waar ik het absoluut niet mee eens kan zijn. Om er twee te noemen, we zijn allemaal zondaars en vrouwen zijn minder dan mannen. Die laatste stuit mij vooral tegen de borst, het gaat in tegen alles waar ik altijd voor heb gestaan, de gelijkheid van mannen en vrouwen.

Als we naar de Bijbel kijken dan staan daar dingen in waarvan ik denk dat de schrijvers erin hebben gezet om mensen klein en angstig te houden. Vooral het oude testament staat er vol mee. Persoonlijk geloof ik dat de mensheid tot meer in staat is dan men tot nu toe heeft laten zien. Maar als religie en onze huidige maatschappij mensen klein en angstig houd en mensen alleen maar bezig zijn met entertainment en uiterlijk vertoon, dan zullen mensen nooit hun volledige potentieel kunnen bereiken. Dan zijn we niet meer dan gehoorzame slaven van de gevestigde orde.

Dat laatste stemt mij dan weer verdrietig. Ik wil de mensheid zo graag helpen om hun hogere doelen te bereiken zodat we kunnen evolueren uit het riool waarin wij nu leven. Riool ja, als je goed om je heen kijkt dan stinkt onze maatschappij van alle kanten. Corruptie, dood en verderf tieren welig en op een enkeling na doet niemand wat. Vele kijken uit naar een hogere macht die voor hen alles beter gaat maken, maar dan heb je het niet begrepen. Als wij verandering willen, dat het leven van iedereen beter gaat worden, dan zullen we zelf de handen uit de mouwen moeten gaan steken. Niemand komt ons redden, dat zullen wij zelf moeten doen.

Dus blijf niet langer met de armen over elkaar zitten of met die vervloekte telefoon in je handen. Kijk wat er nodig is om jouw leven beter te maken en het leven van je buren, familie en vrienden ga aan de slag. In het verleden had ik wel eens discussies met mensen die zeiden dat ze niets hoefde te doen, Jezus zou ze komen redden. Sorry hoor, maar denk je nu werkelijk dat Jezus of God zich druk maken om iemand die geen vinger heeft uitgestoken om het kwaad in deze wereld te beteugelen? Die niets geeft om hoe het met zijn buren gaat, zijn familie en vrienden.

En wat als Jezus ze straks niet komt redden, als ze achter blijven na de opname. Gaan ze dan juichen voor de Antichrists en alles wat hij doet en zegt toedekken met de mantel der liefde? Ik ben niet gelovig al kom ik uit een Katholiek nest. Ik was een straf voor mijn vroegere Pastoor. Alles wat hij op school tijdens Godsdienstles zei, trok ik in twijfel. Daarom mocht ik op een gegeven moment ook niet meer komen. Ik was een storend element tijdens Godsdienstles omdat mijn mede klasgenoten moesten lachen om wat ik zei.

Ik geloof overigens wel in een hogere macht, maar noem die zeker geen God. Voor mij is de benaming God besmet. Hoeveel oorlogen, vervolgingen en ander geweld zijn er niet gedaan in de naam van God?  Gedaan door mensen die dachten te weten wat God van ons zou willen of verwachten. Als we even terug gaan naar de persoon Jezus, hij zei dat we moesten leven in liefde en harmonie met onze naasten. Kijk nu eens de wereld in, gebeurd dat? De meeste mensen gunnen elkaar niets eens het licht in de ogen en regeringen en bedrijven en banken zijn corrupt en denken alleen maar aan geld en macht.

Ik noem de hogere macht waarin ik geloof het Universum. Een andere hogere macht waarin ik geloof is Moeder Natuur. Het Universum is mijn vader en Moeder Natuur is mijn moeder. Beiden zorgen ervoor dat ik krijg wat ik echt nodig heb om te kunnen leven, "dus niet wat mijn hartje begeerd" de rest is aan mij zelf. Er zijn ook Universele en Natuur wetten. Als ik die schend bouw ik karma op en dat karma moet ik dan weer zien uit te werken en ongedaan zien te maken. Ik probeer dus om me aan die wetten te houden zodat ik geen karma opbouw. Mijn doel in dit leven is om verder te evolueren zodat ik niet meer terug hoef te komen in deze gestoorde corrupte wereld.

Christelijke en Islamitische mensen geloven dat je na je dood of in de Hemel of in de Hel terecht gaat komen. In het Joodse geloof is er geen Hemel of Hel. Persoonlijk geloof ik niet in Hemel en Hel. Vooral die laatste niet omdat ik het leven op deze planeet al een hel vind met al dat gedoe en onzekerheden die het leven in zich heeft. Al doende leren we wel, maar er zijn en blijven toch nog veel onzekerheden zoals bijvoorbeeld nu oorlog of vrede. Ik geloof in sferen. Als je sterft ga je naar een bepaalde sfeer waar wordt gekeken wat je hebt geleerd tijdens je verblijf op aarde en hoe je je hebt verhouden jegens je mede mens en de natuur.

Peter68 © ® 16-03-2025
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Faith - religion

I regularly think about faith and religion. I have studied all the major religions (Christian, Jewish, Muslim, and Buddhism) several times in detail and there are sometimes valuable things in those books, but also many things that I absolutely cannot agree with. To name two, we are all sinners and women are less than men. The latter is especially offensive to me, it goes against everything I have always stood for, the equality of men and women.

If we look at the Bible, there are things in it that I think the writers put in to keep people small and fearful. The Old Testament in particular is full of it. Personally, I believe that humanity is capable of more than has been shown so far. But if religion and our current society keep people small and fearful and people are only concerned with entertainment and outward show, then people will never be able to reach their full potential. Then we are nothing more than obedient slaves of the established order.

That last part makes me sad. I want to help humanity so much to achieve their higher goals so that we can evolve out of the sewer we are living in now. Sewer yes, if you look around you, our society stinks from all sides. Corruption, death and destruction are rampant and with the exception of a few, no one does anything. Many look forward to a higher power that will make everything better for them, but then you have not understood. If we want change, that everyone's life will become better, then we will have to roll up our sleeves ourselves. No one is going to save us, we will have to do that ourselves.

So don't sit around with your arms crossed or with that damned phone in your hands any longer. See what is needed to make your life better and the lives of your neighbours, family and friends, get to work. In the past I have had discussions with people who said that they did not have to do anything, Jesus would come and save them. Sorry, but do you really think that Jesus or God care about someone who has not lifted a finger to curb the evil in this world? Who doesn't care about how his neighbours, family and friends are doing.

And what if Jesus doesn't come to save them later, if they stay behind after the rapture. Will they cheer for the antichrist and cover everything he does and says with the cloak of love? I am not religious, even though I come from a Catholic background. I was a punishment for my former pastor. I questioned everything he said during religious education at school. That's why I was not allowed to come at some point. I was a disruptive element during religious education because my fellow classmates had to laugh at what I said.

By the way, I do believe in a higher power, but I certainly don't call it God. For me, the name God is tainted. How many wars, persecutions and other violence have not been committed in the name of God? Done by people who thought they knew what God would want or expect from us. If we go back to the person Jesus, he said that we had to live in love and harmony with our neighbours. Now look at the world, does that happen? Most people do not wish each other any light in their eyes and governments, banks and businessmen are corrupt and only think about money and power.

I call the higher power I believe in the Universe. Another higher power I believe in is Mother Nature. The Universe is my father and Mother Nature is my mother. Both make sure that I get what I really need to live, "so not what my heart desires" the rest is up to me. There are also Universal laws and Natural laws. If I violate them I build up karma and I have to work out that karma and undo it. So I try to keep to those laws so that I do not build up karma. My goal in this life is to evolve further so that I do not have to come back to this crazy corrupt world.

Christian and Islamic people believe that after you die you will either end up in Heaven or Hell. In the Jewish faith there is no Heaven or Hell. Personally I do not believe in Heaven and Hell. Especially not the latter because I already find life on this planet a hell with all the fuss and uncertainties that life has in it. We learn by doing, but there are and remain many uncertainties such as war or peace now. I believe in spheres. When you die you go to a certain sphere where they look at what you have learned during your stay on earth and how you have related to your fellow human beings and nature.

Peter68 © ® 03/16/2025
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Lente / Spring

It took a long time. I went through many valleys last fall and winter, but finally there is some light at the end of the tunnel, Spring. It may sound strange to some, but I run on solar energy. Without sunlight, life has no meaning for me, just like life has no meaning without music.

Spring is my favourite season of the year, although I don't mind the summer heat either. But Spring has an extra dimension for me, new life. Young leaves on the trees, flowers and the birds that start looking for a partner and building nests in January.

My heart always lights up completely when the first signs of Spring appear. Then I know that it can't be long before the sun starts shining again, the flowers start blooming and most importantly, the temperature rises again. If there is one thing I don't like, it is cold, snow and ice. Even in the summer I don't eat ice cream because I don't like the cold.

Yes, call me a weirdo or a freak, I don't care, I am who I am and that is 100% real. But now that spring is coming I can start gardening again, dig through mother earth with my bare hands, sow new life for the bees and butterflies that visit my garden every year. The butterflies that always dance beautifully around my butterfly tree and the bees that fly from flower to flower to collect pollen that they turn into honey.

And I, I sit on my chair in the sun enjoying all this beauty. My heart cheers and is open. And every now and then a butterfly or a bee comes to sit on my leg to rest for a while, something that brings me even more joy. No, I don't need expensive, flashy things, nature gives me everything I need.

Peter68 © ® 03/02/2025
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Groeien - Growing

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Mijn doel in het leven is om te groeien
Om als mens helemaal op te bloeien
Dat doe ik door zoveel mogelijk te leren
Alleen op die manier kan ik evolueren

Ik leer door het leven te ervaren
En soms kunnen die ervaringen me bezwaren
Maar ook van die harde lessen kan ik leren
De kunst is om daarna weer op te veren

Het leven is pieken en dalen
Soms moet je het aller beste uit jezelf naar boven halen
Alleen dan kun je de heuvel en bergen bedwingen
Als je op de top bent kun je zingen

Wees trots op jezelf, jij hebt het weer gedaan
De ervaring leert je hoe bepaalde situaties te verslaan
Je bent nu klaar voor je volgende ervaring
En ook dat zal weer zijn een openbaring

En zo kom je stapje voor stapje verder in het leven
Zo kun je steeds meer van je ervaringen aan andere geven
Het is aan hen wat ze er meedoen
Jij staat immers niet in hun schoen

De vrijheid om te doen en te laten is een groot goed
Vrijheid zit ons mensen in het bloed
Ga dus rustig verder op je levenspad
En herinner jezelf er regelmatig aan dat jij bent de grootste schat.

Peter © ® 09-02-2025
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Growing

My goal in life is to grow
To blossom as a person
I do that by learning as much as possible
Only in this way can I evolve

I learn by experiencing life
And sometimes those experiences can weigh me down
But I can also learn from those hard lessons
The trick is to bounce back afterwards

Life is peaks and valleys
Sometimes you have to get the best out of yourself
Only then can you conquer the hill and mountains
When you reach the top you can sing

Be proud of yourself, you have done it again
Experience teaches you how to beat certain situations
You are now ready for your next experience
And that too will be a revelation

And that is how you progress step by step in life
This way you can give more and more of your experiences to others
It is up to them what they do with it
After all, you are not in their shoes

The freedom to do and not do is a great asset
Freedom is in our blood as humans
So continue calmly on your path in life
And remember remind yourself regularly that you are the greatest treasure.

Peter © ® 02/09/2025
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The path of life

Hearts that say more than words
Souls that sing more beautifully than birds
The love that flows from soul to soul
Yeah, for me that's real Rock & Roll

Life is a game that we play
It's definitely not a walk in the hay
We try to control it all
That's why we stumble and fall

Let go of all control
Focus on the stroll
We're meant to learn something and enrich our soul
That way we can achieve our goals

Focus on your path and listen to your intuition
Only in this way you can fulfil your mission
Trust the Universe and yourself
Then you can achieve evolution and inner wealth.

Peter68 © ® 01-23-2025
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Dream from the past

When I was a little boy I had a dream that still haunts me to this day. Some information in advance. My mother had died a year earlier and I had recently had a stepmother. She and I were water and fire or rather, fire and fire. We were both Aries. She from the 21st of March and I from the 22nd of March.

I had received a beautiful yellow crane for my birthday that I was very proud of. The rule at home was, if something has been outside, it is not allowed to come back inside. I do not know why that was. So I had to put the crane in the garage that opened directly onto the street. My father also had his car there.

One day I came downstairs to play with my crane, the garage door was open, my father had left with the car and my crane had disappeared. I went to tell my stepmother in tears. She got angry with me and said that I was not careful enough with my things. Not that I had much then. We were poor and the crane was the first thing I had gotten in years. I was punished and had to stay in my room for the rest of the day, without food or drink.

That same night I had a dream. I walked downstairs to the garage looking for my crane, but I didn't see it. So I walked outside. There I saw my stepbrother and also my crane standing by the garbage cans. The garbage truck was coming, so I quickly walked to my crane to grab it before it disappeared into the garbage truck.

At the moment I wanted to grab the crane, the garbage man was with us and asked my stepbrother if everything had to go? My stepbrother answered yes, my mother ordered it. Before I could say anything, the garbage man picked me and my crane up and threw me in the garbage truck. I was furious and cursed my stepbrother and his mother. At that moment the press came down to push all the garbage forward. And where on one side was the press I saw on the other side big sharp knives to make the garbage smaller. I had to jump for my life to avoid being grabbed by one of those knives.

Then I woke up from this nightmare and cried softly. I dreamed this dream for three nights in a row but never told my father or stepmother. They didn't understand me anyway, so why bring even more misery on myself? Later in life I understood the message of this terrible dream. Stepmother didn't want me because I was different. I didn't fit into her picture of a happy family.

I was rebellious, always went my own way, when I was punished "for example standing in the corner for a few hours" I laughed at my father and stepmother, I wasn't interested in school, didn't recognize stepmother as a mother and I always had arguments with stepbrother "he was a Scorpio and got me into trouble many times which resulted in me being punished". To this day I am very careful with people who are Scorpio, I don't trust them.

A year later I was placed in a children's home. I had lost both my mother and my father in two years. I felt betrayed by both my father and my mother. I did not yet know what death meant and no one wanted to explain it to me. It was not until I was 8 years old that an uncle of mine took me to the cemetery where my mother's grave was. It was only then that I understood what death meant. When I was placed in the children's home I fell into a very deep depression from which I did not recover until I was about 11 years old.

Why am I writing about this dream NOW? It suddenly surfaced again. Apparently I still have to do something with it, although I don't know what. Maybe it is a kind of separation anxiety that I sometimes have that makes me feel lonely. I am generally alone 24/7, something I don't mind, I chose that myself. That way I can work on myself best without being distracted by others all the time. Not that I don't like other people or don't want them to be with me. I just work best on my own. I am "as the Germans so nicely call it" ein Einzelgänger, a loner or lone wolf.

Peter68 © ® 19-01-2025
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