donderdag 31 oktober 2024

Samhain 2024

Another year has passed, it has gone by quickly. As I get older, the years seem to pass by faster and faster. So you say December and it is already August. It is of course an illusion, but we have started to live faster, which is why people experience more and more stress.

People have to do more and more in one day. Not only from themselves but also from society. People have to achieve goals and targets in so much time. If you can't do that, there must be something wrong with you. The latter is of course nonsense, but our world is full of all kinds of nonsense, so don't worry about it.

Every person can do a certain number of things in one day. If more is demanded of you and you can't do it, don't let them tell you that there is something wrong with you and please don't let them talk you into taking pills or other junk. Those kinds of things really don't make you perform better, that is a fable or illusion.

The past Celtic year was difficult and was full of all kinds of important transformations on a consciousness level. This process will of course continue. Tomorrow 11/1 is such a day, for example. Then follow 11/11, 11/22, 12/12 and 12/21. These are all important portal days. In addition, the planetary positions provide the necessary energies to help us overcome certain inner obstacles.

Pluto

On November 20, Pluto leaves Capricorn after 15 years and will then stay in Aquarius for the next 15 years. We will certainly notice this in the change of energy. This will not happen overnight, but for those who pay attention it will certainly become noticeable in the coming months. Pluto is the planet of death and rebirth and is, together with Mars, Uranus and mini-planet Chiron, a very powerful planet. Incidentally, it will take until October 24, 2255 before Pluto will appear in Capricorn again, Pluto slowly turns its circle around the sun and is also the furthest away from it. It takes about 248 years for Pluto to complete one orbit around our sun.

I will celebrate Samhain today in my own way as I have done for many years with a fire in the garden, good food, a beautiful forest walk and of course gratitude in my heart. The past Celtic year was not easy as I wrote before. But I was able to overcome many inner obstacles. There were also disappointments, one of which deeply touched my heart. ................................................ 💔
But there were also nice and beautiful moments that filled my heart with gratitude and love. The coming Celtic year is once again full of obstacles, challenges and above all opportunities. It will certainly not be an easy year. We will often be shocked by revelations, but it will create a clearer picture for us so that we can take the right steps. Have a blessed Samhain everyone.

Peter68 © ® 31-10-2024
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dinsdag 22 oktober 2024

Martelingen I - Tortures I


Ik herinner ze nog allemaal, de martelingen die ik moest ondergaan.
De stalen pijp die meerdere keren tegen mijn rug werd geslagen, dartpijltjes die in mijn rug en kont werden gedrukt, de sigaretten die op mijn huid werden uitgedrukt, de pijltjes uit het luchtdrukpistool, de glazen flessen die op mijn hoofd kapot werden geslagen, de stenen die naar mij werden gegooid, de klappen en schoppen en de duw die ik kreeg op een vijftien meter hoge bouwsteiger waardoor ik naar beneden viel. Gelukkig voor mij lag er een hoop zand. Door de val kneusde ik mijn pols en enkel, maar ik had wel dood kunnen zijn of in een rolstoel kunnen belanden.

En dat zijn slechts de fysieke martelingen die ik moest ondergaan, de psychische martelingen waren net zo erg en ze hebben, net als de fysieke martelingen, hun littekens nagelaten. Ze vonden plaats tussen maart 1972 en juni 1983. In 1983 had ik eindelijk de kracht gevonden om tegen mijn martelaars "mijn eigen familie" op te staan en te zeggen, het is genoeg geweest. Ik schreef ze een brief waarin ik alles opsomde wat ze mij hadden aangedaan. Een neef kwam om mij nog een les lezen, die heb ik de deur uitgetrapt. Ik kreeg nog wat krokodillentranen van een tante en bedreigingen van neefjes en men wilde mij een inbraak in de schoenen schuiven, maar die heb ik allemaal genegeerd, het was genoeg voor mij.

Je vraagt je je misschien af wat die mensen mankeerde? Dat heb ikzelf ook lang gedaan, totdat ik begreep waar zij vandaan kwamen. Ik keek terug naar hun ouders. Hun ouders hadden de tweede wereldoorlog meegemaakt en verschrikkelijk geleden tijdens de hongerwinter. natuurlijk is het geen excuus, maar ik begreep plots waar hun gestoorde gedrag vandaan kwam. Ik ben altijd anders geweest en in hun ogen was ik de zwakste schakel binnen de familie. Ik keek anders tegen dingen aan, deed dingen anders, dacht anders en ging nooit mee met de massa. Mode, trends, hypes, het was niet aan mij besteed en dat vond men vreemd. Een neef van me wilde altijd de nieuwste mode hebben, ik liep altijd in een spijkerbroek en T-shirt. En dan vroegen ze, wilde je er niet goed uitzien en erbij horen? Nee, ik ben zoals ik ben en ik ga me niet aanpassen omdat de mode dat zo voorschrijft.

Terugkijkend in de familiegeschiedenis en vaak luisterend naar oude familie verhalen begreep ik steeds meer waarom zij hadden gedaan wat ze hadden gedaan. Het waren projecties van hun eigen onvermogen. Projecties die ze fysiek en psychologisch op mij hadden geprojecteerd. Ikzelf wist toen nog niet goed hoe daarmee om te gaan. Ik had geen ouders die mij dat konden leren en mijn oma bij wie ik vaak was, was zelf ook zwaar beschadigd door de oorlog, het verlies van een dochter "mijn moeder" en haar scheiding. Ik had in mijn jeugd dus te maken met allemaal beschadigde mensen.

Ik ben sowieso van mening dat de Nederlandse regering slecht is omgegaan met de bevolking na de tweede wereldoorlog. De meeste mensen moesten maar doen alsof er niets was gebeurd. En mensen die terugkwam uit concentratiekampen hadden het helemaal zwaar. Joodse mensen waren alles kwijt, inclusief hun huis en bezittingen. Mijn opa die militair was zat gevangen in een Pool officierenkamp "mijn opa was Luitenant-kolonel in het Nederlandse leger" en werd na terugkomst naar Nederland Indië gestuurd om daar de opstand de kop in te drukken. Hij wilde in eerste instantie niet, maar na het dreigement, dat als hij niet ging zijn gezin iets ging overkomen is die toch gegaan.

Bij terugkomst in Nederland was die nog meer getraumatiseerd dan die al was door zijn verblijf in het Poolse officierenkamp. En hij was niet de enigste die zwaar getraumatiseerd terugkwam. Sommige van zijn regiment hebben na terugkomst zelfmoord gepleegd, ze konden niet omgaan met alle verschrikkingen die ze de afgelopen tien jaar van hun leven hadden meegemaakt. Je mag je ook afvragen wat de Nederlandse regering toen heeft bezielt? Misschien dachten ze dat ze na vijf jaar oorlog weer op de oude voet door konden gaan. Maar de Nederlandse regering en het koningshuis waren een stelletje op macht beluste idioten. Ze gaven niets om het Nederlandse volk dat zo had geleden onder de nazi bezetting. Dat vond ik al als 10 jarig kind en dat vind ik nog steeds, ook over de huidige regering "los van welke partijen er aan de macht zijn", het zijn allemaal klootzakken inclusief het koningshuis.

Peter68 © ® 22-10-2024

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Tortures I

I still remember them all, the tortures I had to endure. The steel pipe that was repeatedly hit against my back, darts that were pressed into my back and buttocks, the cigarettes that were put out on my skin, the darts from the air gun, the glass bottles that were smashed on my head, the stones that were thrown at me, the blows, kicks and the push I got on a fifteen-meter high scaffolding that made me fall down. Luckily for me there was a lot of sand. The fall bruised my wrist and ankle, but I could have died or ended up in a wheelchair.

And these are only the physical tortures I had to endure, the psychological tortures were just as bad and, like the physical tortures, they have left their scars. They took place between March 1972 and June 1983. In 1983 I finally found the strength to stand up to my torturers "my own family" and say, enough is enough. I wrote them a letter in which I listed everything they had done to me. A cousin came to read me another lesson, I kicked him out the door. I got some crocodile tears from an aunt and threats from nephews and they wanted to pin a burglary on me, but I ignored them all, it was enough for me.

You may wonder what was wrong with those people? I did that myself for a long time, until I understood where they came from. I looked back at their parents. Their parents had experienced the Second World War and suffered terribly during the Hunger Winter. Of course it is no excuse, but I suddenly understood where their crazy behaviour came from. I have always been different and in their eyes I was also the weakest link in the family. I looked at things differently, did things differently, thought differently and never went along with the crowd. Fashion, trends, hypes, it was not for me and people found that strange. A cousin of mine always wanted to have the latest fashion, I always wore jeans and a T-shirt. And then they asked, didn't you want to look good and fit in? No, I am who I am and I'm not going to change because fashion dictates.

Looking back at the family history and often listening to old family stories I understood more and more why they had done what they had done. They were projections of their own inability. Projections that they had physically and psychologically projected onto me. I myself did not know how to deal with that. I had no parents who could teach me that and my grandmother, with whom I was often, was also severely damaged by the war, the loss of a daughter "my mother" and her divorce. So in my youth I had to deal with all kinds of damaged people.

In any case I am of the opinion that the Dutch government treated the people badly after the Second World War. Most people had to pretend that nothing had happened. And people who returned from concentration camps had it really hard. Jewish people had lost everything, including their homes and possessions. My grandfather who was a soldier was imprisoned in a Polish officers' camp "my grandfather was a lieutenant colonel in the Dutch army" and was sent to the Dutch East Indies after his return to suppress the uprising there. At first he didn't want to, but after the threat that if he didn't go something would happen to his family he went anyway.

When he returned to the Netherlands he was even more traumatised than he already was from his stay in the Polish officers' camp. And he wasn't the only one who returned severely traumatised. Some of his regiment committed suicide after returning, they couldn't cope with all the horrors they had experienced in the past ten years of their lives. You may also wonder what possessed the Dutch government at that time? Maybe they thought that after five years of war they could continue as before? But the Dutch government and the royal family were a bunch of power hungry idiots. They didn't care about the Dutch people who suffered so much under the Nazi occupation. That's what I thought as a 10 year old child and I still think that, also about the current government "regardless of which parties are in power", they are all assholes including the royal family.

Peter68 © ® 10/22/2024
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donderdag 10 oktober 2024

Krachten bundelen - Joining forces

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Ze zeggen dat de wereld in brand staat
Dat komt door alle ongenoegen en haat
Mensen kunnen niets meer van elkaar verdragen
Maar er is ook nog weinig wat ze kan behagen

Waarom, waarom gedragen vele zich als beesten
Kunnen ze alleen nog over het ongeluk van andere feesten
Waarom hebben wij elkander niet meer lief
In plaats het veroorzaken van al dat grief?

We zijn allemaal mensen
Met bepaalde wensen
O mensheid ontwaak toch uit deze slaap
Wees niet langer een schaap

Schut van u af de programmering die ons alle is aan het slopen
Laat u niet langer verleiden om waardeloze onzin te kopen
Religie en politiek gaan ons niet helpen of redden
Daar durf ik zelf mijn leven om te verwedden

We zullen zelf de koe bij de horens moeten vatten
En ons niet laten onderschatten
De mensheid is tot zoveel meer in staat dan het heeft gedaan
Het is de hoogste tijd om een andere wegen in te slaan

Door onze krachten te bundelen kunnen we bergen verzetten
Als we samenwerken, kan niemand ons dat beletten
Een hand die de oude systemen doet verdwijnen
Opdat wij niet langer hoeven weg te kwijnen

Geef elkander in liefde en respect de hand
Help elkaar uit de brand
Door ons meer met elkaar te verbinden
Zullen wij de juiste weg weten te vinden.

Peter68 © ® 10-10-2024
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Joining forces

They say the world is on fire
That's because of all the discontent and hatred
People can't stand each other anymore
But there's also little left that can please them

Why, why do so many behave like beasts
Can they only party about other people's misfortunes?
Why don't we love each other anymore
Instead of causing all that grief?

We are all human beings
With certain desires
Oh humanity, wake up from this sleep
Don't be a sheep any longer

Shake off the programming that is destroying us all
Don't let yourself be tempted to buy worthless nonsense any longer
Religion and politics will not help or save us
I dare bet my life on that

We will have to take the bull by the horns ourselves
And not let ourselves be underestimated
Humanity is capable of so much more than it has done
It is high time to take a different path

By joining forces we can move mountains
If we work together, no one can stop us
One hand that makes the old systems disappear
So that we no longer have to wither away

Give each other a hand in love and respect
Help each other out of the fire
By connecting more with each other
We will know how to find the right path.

Peter68 © ® 10/10/2024
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dinsdag 8 oktober 2024

Struggling

I'm completely off track and lost
And I am feeling exhaust
There's something going on inside of me, a big fight
It's as bright as the sun and as dark as the night

Even the cigarette is back
But I don't mind, even if it gives me a heart attack
I'll get through this, they will disappear
But when is still unclear

I will fight till the bitter end
I can tell you that my friend
It's not like it used to be
Really stopping means a lot to me

Still, I have to find my way back first
That fight is the worst
But with my life experience and alien powers
I should be able to move towers

I need to find out who I really am?
I need to put an end to that old program
Ctrl, Alt, Delete can be tried
Maybe then I can also erase my pride.

Peter68 © ® 10/08/2024
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